urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal ...dance to a different beat. Dressed To Thrill 2004-07-06T23:33:14Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:4926 2004-07-06T23:33:14Z 2004-07-06T23:33:14Z DEAR LIVE JOURNAL,<br /><br /> Why do people just write about how they think they are depressed and or how bad they think their lives are to make people think something is wrong with them so they can have people comment about the same shit and think those things are true so they feel bad, but when you are with those people they lead perfectly normal lives without any harms/complaints/or worrys?<br /><br />its just like everyone does it. like all they do when they sit on there computers is bring things down on themselves to think something is wrong with their heads. LIKE ITS A LITTLE TO OVIOUS IF E.V.E.R.Y.O.N.E DOES IT. its not even original anymore. maybe like 3-4 years ago it would have been. or even if like 1 or 2 people did it but no everyones gotta jump on the band wagon.<br /><br />i dont get these people and the shit they write about.<br />___________________________________________________________________________________<br />"youve become everything you hated" -midtown<br /><br />like you say you hate when you see all these kids saying there depressed and suicidal and then again you are one of those people who just tells everyone that there is something wrong with you but you know when you are LYING to yourself. <br />___________________________________________________________________________________ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:4617 2004-07-06T06:50:19Z 2004-07-06T06:50:19Z avangeline we dont fake it, we just take it.<br /><br /><br /><br />set it the fuck off. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:4436 2004-06-29T01:35:06Z 2004-06-29T01:35:06Z everytimeidiewasaddedtohellfest.ownass i am not cool. i am a loser. <br /><br /><br />only the deaf find peace. only the blind wont reach. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:4273 2004-06-17T04:42:35Z 2004-06-17T04:42:35Z thats right, the bled. the bled is playing warp tour!!!!!!!!<br /><br />it might not seem like alot but last year i only watched like 5 bands. brand new, the ataris, poison the well, taking back sunday(ew) and motion city soundtrack..and others but not by choice. <br /><br />this year:<br /><br />the bled<br />thursday<br />underoath<br />from first to last<br />piebald<br />coheed and cambria.<br /><br />i like it when its spread apart.<br />im considering to go now. eat me out.<br />anyone up for going?<br /><br />p.s. where the fuck has glassjaw been? the new ablum comes out soon i think. im not sure though. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:4018 2004-06-16T02:55:26Z 2004-06-16T02:55:26Z i need to be unhappy to smile. i got my haircut. it doesnt look that bad, i think. <br /><br />lately ive been having weird obsessions with her, black jeans, avenged sevenfold, you come before you, the story of the year video for anthem of our dying die(i hate story of the year), wanting to do things i dont usually do, and other things..sorta wierd<br /><br /> ive also been thinking about what we will be doing this summer..and it has definetly sucked so far about what ive been thinking. all i thought of was going to cvs, late nights riding around, and hanging out at each others houses until like 11 each night. im sorta scared. my goal is not to go to cvs all summer, unless there is a reason. i hate cvs. i dont even see how they go there and bike/skate at all. i mean like its so beat. this town is so beat too. <br /><br />there definetly will be alot of going to shows this summer.<br />hellfest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so many good bands, maybe warped tour(only 5 bands are playing that i would want to see...thursday, underoath, piebald, coheed and cambria(?), and from first to last.<br /><br />i want my license. a summer with all of the above would never happen. ever. i dont like thinking about.<br /><br />im stuck home for the first few weeks of summer. <br />come over whenever. <br />i dont care who you are. <br />we can chill and listen to oar and wear sandals<br />...anything you want. you got it.<br /><br />well take care. i guess. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:3637 2004-05-31T04:57:54Z 2004-05-31T04:57:54Z i didnt like what i saw tonight at all...i dont even want to think about it.<br /><br />but i cant help it, i care. i dont know, maybe i dont, its just really bugging me out thinking about it.<br /><br />our town is so gay. i miss tommy, sean, and the rook. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:3333 2004-05-30T05:52:29Z 2004-05-30T05:52:29Z from autumn to ashes bitches my day:<br /><br />wake up, take a shower and go on the computer to find out the situation for the night was...matt wright wasnt on so i thought ill talk to jeff to see if anything got to him. jeff says he doesnt know anything so i think im fucked for the night and im not going. then i talked to mark and he didnt know..mark calls me up and says matt cant drive me to the show. (body folded, and felt weird for a while.)<br /><br />called chris harris to ask him a HUGEEEE favor of me. i asked him what he was doing during the night time and he said he was going to starland for the anterrabae/fata/atreyu/eighteen visions show...so i asked him if i coudl go because everyone went wrong these past few days and he said yea sure and i gave him 10 bucks for gas and shit. very thankful for his decions made. (thanks chris again.)<br /><br />my night:<br /><br />get to the show and i have to wait on the longest line in the fucking world BY MYSELF to get in. at this time is 6:40ish now and im thinking that it start at 7 and there was no way i was going to see anterrabae at this rate. 20 minutes later i find out only doors open at 7. now its 7 and the line is barely moving. and i sorta get close to the building and i hear sound check and its like 730 now. then the line starts cruising. and i get it at 7:38. (the power of a cell phone clock) and i go buy an anterrabae shirt because they are awsome. i talked to joey from anterrabae and i said he was the shit. and now i have to find someone to stand with and i walked around by where we stood at the thursday show and i found mark matt scott and erin. better than nothing. the time now is 748 and i bullshit with mark for a while..i asked him to hold my shirt and phone and he does a good job at it. and i said ill be back when anterrabae finished or something. and i went and watched the greatest band of all time. anterrabae is so good. neils voice is god. joey is such a cool person, i saw chris towards the end of the night and talked to him for a little. i didnt meet the new bass player though. i wish they still had matt gordon though. and i didnt talk to ryan tonight because hes the hardass of the band and he doesnt walk around to meet people. (and i talk like i know them all.) and then i walked back and got my shit from mark after they played.<br /><br />eighteen visions comes on and i finally see chris and rizzy(?) and eighteen visions' music is really good but the singers voice gets a little annoying after a while. the singer also had the biggest head in the world. everyone looked the same in that band. it was weird. me and mark sorta made fun of everyone standing around us while they were playing. also a girl was standing there and i looked over and i could basically see right down her shirt and a pretty hot face so i told mark and he was like ooo lala or somethign and then shes like im going into the middle and i looked at her ass and it was like 3 feet wide and it totally bummed me out.<br /><br />atreyu comes on and they were pretty good. theyve got some crazy guitar shit in some of their songs. they covered bon jovi which was cool because they were in new jersey and isnt bon jovi from new jersey? eh idc. during the part in lipgloss and black "live, love, burn, die" ben from fata came on and sang it with them. it was good.<br /><br />i walk to the back so it would be easier to get out after the show so we didnt have to wait mad long. i saw some pretty fucking hardcore chicks there. like they were getting into the pits and like they could probably kick my ass. there were alot of hot chicks there. there always are at shows. <br /><br />but during fata they played reflections and thats like the best song evAR! they played alot of old shit which was good because i like the old shit a little better than the new shit. matt wright told me during the after dinner payback he got on stage..i didnt see him or i did but i didnt knwo it was him...my eyes were watching the hardcore chicks in the pit. they were crazy.<br /><br />well all in all my day turned from bad to very good. thanks to chris harris for i love him so much now. and the other kids that went so chris could go and take me. but this has been my longest entry ever...round of a plause, thank you. thank you.<br /><br />eh now im tired. i dont think ive ever said i was "tired" in my life.<br /> <br />nights. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:3182 2004-05-18T22:18:21Z 2004-05-18T22:18:21Z something "hardcore" like disturbed or slipknot< SW kids,YEA me and frank are so hardcore. we have tattoos, piercings, gauges, long dirty hair, coverses, dirty army clothes, dirty anarchist hats that we stole from hot topic, and most off all....big egos! and we kick people..i forgot. OH and we hang around skaters world.&lt; biggest important fact that youll ever need to know. you might not be able to reconize us when you go there but we are definetly there everyday. our best friends names are dj and dan or mike or something gay. dan or mike whatever the fuck his name is ALWAYS refered to as RAMBO. dont ever fucking forge that. hahaha they dont even know what they got themselves into. mother fuckers. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:2837 2004-05-05T01:38:48Z 2004-05-05T01:38:48Z our lady of sorrows. hello. i saw as i lay dying on saturday..."the shit" or "badass" as you can refer it to. im getting a haircut soon i think. i got half inches in my ears now. they are big. bigger than everyones in my town. some people will say "ew thats gross, you ruined your ear" hmm rethink it...yea they do look insane..well anterrabae, from autumn to ashes, eighteen visions, and atreyu show is coming up soon. ALSO murder by death is plaig at starland on june 7th...its a monday but the thursday show was on a monday...anyone up for going? MIKE IS UP FOR GOING!!!!!!!!! mike we need to go. i want new shoes. maybe the macbeths with the finch quote in them<br /><br />"whats the price to pay, for glory?" i find that quite off the hoooook nigga.<br /><br />or these nikes i saw in eastbay..they were all black..JOEY FROM ANTERRABAE has them...he is god..but thats not the reason i want them.<br /><br />or i will just keep rockin' the old school vans...<br /><br />yea, how 'bout you? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:2595 2004-05-01T05:00:57Z 2004-05-01T05:00:57Z poisonthewell <table style="font-family : Arial, Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; border-collapse: collapse; border: 1px solid black;" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2" align="center"><form action="http://memegen.deskslave.org/viewmeme.pl?un=morning_prayer&amp;meme=1074625254?Your first full name=sophia" method="POST"><tr><th colspan="2" bgcolor="#000000"><font color="#DDDD88">Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by <a href="http://www.hjfgsdhf.com"><font color="#DDDD88">morning_prayer</font></a></font></th></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Your first full name</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;"><input type="text" name="Your first full name" value="sophia" size="20"></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Your personality rates a</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">nope, zero</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">your best quality is</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">you suck (literally)</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">your worst quality is</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">you trust people too easily</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">this is because</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">other people influenced you</span></td></tr><input type="hidden" name="un" value="morning_prayer"><input type="hidden" name="meme" value="1074625254?Your first full name=sophia"><tr><td colspan="2" align="center" bgcolor="#000000"><input type="submit" value="Fill Out Your Answers and Try it!"></td></tr><tr><td colspan="2" align="center" bgcolor="#000000"><font size="-1" color="#FFFFFF">Created with the ORIGINAL <a href="http://memegen.deskslave.org/"><font color="#DDDD88">MemeGen</font></a>!</font></td></tr></form></table> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:2508 2004-04-27T19:17:41Z 2004-04-27T19:17:41Z EVERYTIMEIDIENIGGGAAAAA <table style="font-family : Arial, Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; border-collapse: collapse; border: 1px solid black;" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2" align="center"><form action="http://memegen.deskslave.org/viewmeme.pl?un=morning_prayer&amp;meme=1074625254" method="POST"><tr><th colspan="2" bgcolor="#000000"><font color="#DDDD88">Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by <a href="http://www.hjfgsdhf.com"><font color="#DDDD88">morning_prayer</font></a></font></th></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Your first full name</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;"><input type="text" name="Your first full name" value="derrick" size="20"></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Your personality rates a</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">nine =)</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">your best quality is</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">youre unique and you rock!</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">your worst quality is</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">someone cheated you</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">this is because</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;">you were born this way</span></td></tr><input type="hidden" name="un" value="morning_prayer"><input type="hidden" name="meme" value="1074625254"><tr><td colspan="2" align="center" bgcolor="#000000"><input type="submit" value="Fill Out Your Answers and Try it!"></td></tr><tr><td colspan="2" align="center" bgcolor="#000000"><font size="-1" color="#FFFFFF">Created with the ORIGINAL <a href="http://memegen.deskslave.org/"><font color="#DDDD88">MemeGen</font></a>!</font></td></tr></form></table> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:2062 2004-04-22T04:57:19Z 2004-04-22T04:57:19Z ANYTHING INDIE!!!!!!! DEAR, PLEASE READ MY EL JAY.<br /><br />OMFG tonight was so chill. first me and some hotties walked up town and just chillaxed and then went to the other side of town and tried to hit up something or another. then we met up with some other kiddies that were a little on the non sober side...if ya know what im talking about. they definetly were not chill. fersear. W T F like whoa i found the greatest indie band ever. they are called bright eyes. conor oberst is so chill. i want to be like just like him, i went out and bought some scarves and shit. it was chill. i cant wait for this weekend to hit up the mall and buy some shit that no one will like when the indie scene dies out soon enough. ill be like the only indie kid left. it will be chill. chill to that.<br /><br />damn. <br /><br />kidding.<br /><br />people in my town are gay.<br /><br />but they dont notice when they go along with it.<br /><br />the indie "scene" is dying out.<br /><br />mike jurewicz will stay true to his roots though. only him though. not you. so shut up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:1805 2004-04-20T05:48:16Z 2004-04-20T05:48:16Z 4/16-4/18...cannot even describe the amazment i had with mike, frank, sean, tommy, brendan, sal, and rob. definetly the best weekend ever. alot of 420. i think to much of 420. <br /><br />funeral for a friend, andrew wk, coheed and cambria, brand new, the starting line, denali, my chemical romance, senses fail, onelinedrawing(jonah, is the coolest person ever.), the bled, a static lullaby, straylight run, armor for sleep, boys night out, sparta, me without you, strength in numbers, piebald, kevin devine, from first to last, denver in dallas, jamisonparker, mc lars(rap group that threw in a mix between brand new and piebald), the beautiful mistake, matchbook romance, sugarcult, cave in, and more but thats all <br /><br />i missed folly :sad:<br /><br />yea alot of them i just watched because no one else was playing at the time.<br /><br />denali was definetly really good, the girl in the band was alot better live than in the video...she is way hot too.<br /><br /><br />peace. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:1631 2004-04-13T23:50:43Z 2004-04-13T23:50:43Z norma jean. saw thursday and poison the well the other night...fucking good. got poison the well shirt with the orgasm lady on it..so they say. it was a reallllllllllllly good fucking show. poison the well ended with nerdy...i ended with a happy ending. thursday played for about an hour ish i think or longer..."amazing"(to joe). wow.<br /><br />christ is not a fashion.<br /><br />for you, <br />from me. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:1476 2004-04-10T04:26:48Z 2004-04-10T04:26:48Z as i lay dying. i had a dream the other night and i was walking around and i saw all these people i didnt know and i came upon a room and i walked in and there she was...i said to her "i have to tell you something" and she said plainly after a long pause "what" and i felt like walking away but if i didnt tell her then i would never feel better, and i told her and she didnt say anything back to me. and a whole lot of other shit happened but i soon woke up. knowing that it was a dream, it was true though. i felt terrible the whole day. i bottle everything up and it just makes me feel worse and worse. but hopefully one day ill be able to understand why everything happened like it did.<br /><br />7/16ths...badass as fuck urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:1205 2004-03-30T01:34:56Z 2004-03-30T01:34:56Z from autumn to ashes. well went to vermont over the weekend to snowboard...gay. i dont feel like doing anything anymore. i hate school. i think i did better this marking period though. i only failed one math test. but yet i still havent passed a test since the first marking period in spanish though. ah fuck it. i dont need spanish. actually i could use a show including anterrabae/from autumn to ashes/ eighteen visions/ and atreyu. that would be killer. wait they are going on tour this spring.......(sigh of relief). have fun with yourself today. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:920 2004-03-24T02:28:09Z 2004-03-24T02:28:09Z yea anterrabae well i got the anterrabae cd today...they are my favorite band. i probably will not stop listening to it. well i guess thats all.<br /><br />we are saturated in sap opera stricken prose. BEWARE i have a disease where borderline intorlerance fucks lethargy in rythmic fasion. You will find me knee deep in regret with a bottle and a bruise reciting tired quotes ( oh babe, youve got a lot to lose ) and tragic tales. Were not dead enogh to matter, yet nto alive enough to care. ive lost my head again. i should have seen this one coming (im having a hard time believeing these are the best years of my life.) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:726 2004-03-20T04:39:51Z 2004-03-20T04:39:51Z anterrabae well the el journal is fucked up. dont look at it. it will be fixed one day in the near future. i hate alot of people. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dreamsarentreal:283 2004-03-14T05:21:22Z 2004-03-14T05:21:22Z anterrabae new journal. same life. the story continues.